kristyisundead

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 16:41:06 GMT

I only have one day off for the next two weeks. Somehow, I'm not even really upset about it. I feel like I dont have time to do anything anymore. I want to go antique shopping sooo bad. I want to lay around all day and listen to records and clean my room out. I want to have time to lay around and do absolutley nothing at all.

I, U N R

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 10:26:03 GMT

Is all I need.

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 03:21:07 GMT

I am soooooo sick. I NEED to be better soon. I cant take off any days at work!
Siiiiiiiiiigh.

Sat, 29 Nov 2008 08:30:07 GMT

Dear You,

I wanna lay in bed naked with you all day and watch the X-Files and rub cheese all over your face, becasue I love you.

Love, Kristy.

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:45:41 GMT

Lastnight I had a dream that I was making out with Desi Arnaz. I guess that's what you get for falling asleep during I Love Lucy. Not that I minded the dream at all. ;)

Today at work I told a patient of mine, Clara, that she reminded me of Clara Bow. (Same name, both tiny as hell, short curly hair, big brown eyes.) She told me that her mother actually named her after Clara Bow becasue her mom was really into the "Glamorous" stuff at the time. (Wich was in the 1920's). I thought it was adorable. (Someone who ACTUALLY even knows who she is in general is pretty rare.) Things like that make me love my job.

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 20:59:25 GMT

I totally have a huge crush on Beyonce. There, I said it. Hahaha.

Pretty much.

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 19:38:38 GMT

I get delirious whenever you're near
Lose all self-control, baby just can't steer
Wheels get locked in place
Stupid look on my face

It comes 2 makin' a pass, pretty mama
I just can't win a race

'Cuz I get delirious
Delirious
Delirious

I get delirious when U hold my hand
Body gets so weak I can hardly stand
My temperature's runnin' hot
Baby U got 2 stop

'Cuz if U don't I'm gonna explode
And girl I got a lot

I get delirious
Delirious
Delirious

I get delirious whenever you're near
Girl U gotta take control 'cuz I just can't steer
You're just 2 much 2 take
I can't stop I ain't got no brakes

Girl U gotta take me 4 a little ride up and down
In and out and around your lake

I'm delirious
U, U, U get me delirious
Baby, lay me down
Delirious
The room, the room, the room is spinnin' around

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 06:56:31 GMT

The Sisters Of Mercy were absolutley AMAZING. If you didnt go, you missed out on a great show.

In other news, I am feeling so nostalgic tonight. Damn this weather, it does this to me everytime. However, I've also been listening to The Cure an awful lot today, so I'm sure that contributed to it a lot. Haha. I want someone to come over and cuddle with me right now.

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 10:04:03 GMT

I spent most of my night with Jesse and Dylan on top of the abandoned bowling alley on Port Malabar road. Yes, on top. The roof. We're gonna camp up there soon. It's actually very very pleasant up there. Beautiful, even.
Everything about tonight was perfect. We brought coffee and saw sooo many shooting stars. I possibly even saw a UFO.

I know I have something to believe in.

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 21:59:46 GMT

So, it's been about 3 or 4 days since I started this fast. All I've had is water and diet soda, occasionaly. Of course the first thing everyone asks "is this to lose weight?!" Goddamnit, NO! I am fasting until I can have something to believe in. Generally speaking. So whatever it is that I am meant to live for, will save me from starving to death. And if not, I'd rather die in search for something to believe in than to live for nothing at all.

However, I'm getting soooo dizzy.

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 02:21:34 GMT

WHATTTTT THE FUCK. I hate everything, I hate you, I hate life. The end.

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 09:14:41 GMT

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh. :/

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 22:35:11 GMT

I feel so empty. I just want to feel close again.

Nothing feels important anymore. There's something missing in my life. Theres nothing special.

I feel like nothing is sacred to anyone except me. Nobody has any values. Too much emphasis on silly things that dont matter. I'm just so sick of it. Being in love is supposed to be the most meaningful thing in the world. It's alright though, I know what's real.

Writer's Block: I Love Lucy

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 17:56:30 GMT

I Love Lucy premiered today in 1951, and has been on the air ever since. Although Lucille Ball and Desi Arnaz’s marriage didn’t last off the air, Lucy and Ricky are one of the great couples in television history. Who is your favorite TV couple?

View 500 Answers

And of course Fox Mulder and Dana Scully. :P

Writer's Block: I Love Lucy

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 17:54:21 GMT

View 500 Answers

Archie and Edith Bunker, and George and Weezy Jefferson!!

Mushy bullshit.

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 08:34:50 GMT

I dont know how to say this without sounding completely fucking cheesy and ridiculous, but I seriously have never loved anyone so unconditionally and so honestly as I love him.

I cant really find the words to complete this entry, so I'm going to leave it at that.

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 16:24:02 GMT

Ok, so I really think I am going crazy. Something is seriously going on and I dont have any idea what it is. Lastnight on the way home, my car stopped working on the way home, before and after I dropped off Katie. It NEVER does that. On the way home, I saw a flash of light go over my car and my car just turned off. It took me like 20 seconds to restart it, and that was the most terrifying 20 seconds of my life. The other night my brothers ran out of the room screaming, telling us that something was crawling up their wall and making weird paper crumbling noises. Like something very large. Around 4 feet tall. And a few months back, my mom was talking to who she thought was my sister, a girl who looked exactly like her, except the hair was slightly lighter. But the girl didnt talk back to her. She just stood there, looking down, with her hair around her face. My mom didnt say anything until the boys came out of their room saying they saw a girl stand in the mirror and it looked like my sister. About 30 minutes later, the sister came home from being out all day. My mom and brothers have also reported hearing loud hissing noises in the middle of the night. I havent heard any, but I do however hear loud droning noises along with a high pitched ringing noise outside of my window several times. So has my brother. It woke us both up at night. We sleep on seperate sides of the house. And it just so happens that my sleep paralysis has been getting worse again, after about two months of no sleep paralysis. Like, I've been dealing with ghosts and shit all my life, and to be honest, I dont really get bothered by them anymore. But the thing is, that I dont think theyre ghosts... Maybe something more... extraterrestrial? And I know this all sounds so silly and stuff, but I'm actually getting to the point where it makes me cry, becasue I am worried for my own mental health. I am thinking about seeing a psychiatrist soon. I think I may be schizophrenic or something. But if it was just me, why would the rest of my family be experiencing things? I dont know, I just want it to stop. I cant handle it anymore.

Ok soooo...

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 18:20:17 GMT

I started my new job, at Clare Bridge Assisted Living as a CNA. I like my job, but theres soooooo much running around. I have a lot of hours though, so thats good. Finally makin some money!

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 07:39:35 GMT

I love when he kisses me and leaves scars on my boobs and plays me Prince songs.

Nightttt.

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 10:27:44 GMT

"I have offended God and mankind because my work did not reach the quality it should have."
~~ Leonardo da Vinci, artist, d. 1519 (his last words.)

This seriously blows my mind. If only he knew.

By the way, I am going to build a time machine and travel back to 1920 and marry the fuck outta Rudolph Valentino. Such a shame he died so young. I wonder what he would have achived if he lived longer.

I dont think he, or any man, could be any more perfect than he was.

Crazy.

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 06:54:06 GMT

Latley I have just been so obsessed with everything. I just want to explore every aspect of life and know everything there is to know and discover secrets to life and blow everyone's mind. I've been so dedicated to astrobiology and astronomy and anthropology and parapsychology and theology and everything. I just want to absorb everything at once and figure it out. Figure out how it all connects and how it is all important to our everyday living. Today I was teaching my siblings about evolution and natural selection and it just blew their minds becasue of the way I explained it to them. I really think I should be a teacher. I just wish everyone could see things how I see and look at different aspects to existance. Someday I will prove to the world everything. Haha. I dont know how or when, but I will.

On a completely different note, I wish I would open up to him and be affectionate and such. And I know he's trying, and I know I should try a little harder too. The truth is, I just have so many feelings towards him that I dont think I know how to manifest them verbaly or physicaly. I think I'm just in a very slow process of adjusting and opening myself up to him. Slowly but surley I will get there.

To sum up this post, I may figure out the secrets of the universe, but I will never figure out myself.

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 07:02:08 GMT

So tonight I got waterboarded and sucked 2 feet at once.
I love life so hard.

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 02:15:08 GMT

So my sister is in town right now. Amanda. She's the only one of the two older sisters I have ever been close with. I remember her being like 14 and me being 8 watching Beavis and Butthead on MTV at the old house in Pa. We used to be so close and now its so weird that we're both adults now and dont really talk anymore. We went to Captain Hirams today for dinner and it was really nice. I bought a squid toe ring. I failed to buy fish earrings though. I really have felt so horrible all day. My head hurts so bad and I am always in a really weird mood where nothing causes me emotion in any way. I might be moving in with my grandma soon. I really think she needs someone to live there with her. She fell two weeks ago, and today almost burnt the house down by accident. She left all of the burners on and forgot to turn them off when we went to dinner. I'm getting worried about her. She took care of me all of these years while my mom was in school and working and my dad at work. She deserves better than to be left alone or even worse, to be put in a nursing home. If I live with her I get the huge backroom with the hugeass water bed, back porch and bathroom. Thats definatley a plus.
I havent seen any friends today. I really kinda feel shitty about not going over to Nadias house, but I really feel terrible and I have to get up at 7 for some bullshit that my mom needs me to do. I really think shes just using it as an excuse so I dont go out tonight. I dunno, whatever. Tomorrow is the lat day Amanda is in town anyways, it will be good to go early and hangout I guess. I told Jesse I wasnt gonna hangout with him tonight and hes pissed off at me about that too.
I took some sleeping pills about a half hour ago, I feel them kicking in...

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 01:19:14 GMT

I really think something is wrong with me. Like in a serious way. If there isnt something wrong with me physicaly, then it's mentaly. Or both, who knows. I am a hypocondriac. I really really am terrified of having a mental problem. It runs in my family. Being truley mentaly unstable is one of my biggest fears. I've seen what it does to people, and famlies. Having to take Xanax for panic and anxieity problems is what I feel is the first step towards something really bad. I dont know. I dont wanna think about it anymore.
I wish none of this were true.

Things I hate.

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 12:35:41 GMT

More lists!
- When Lifetime plays Army Wives instead of GOLDEN GIRLS. (Or any of their other bullshit that gets in the way of GG.)
- When men shave everyday. Or more than once a week, in general.
- Not going to bed and waking up at normal times. (It makes me hate life and do things like this.)
- Eating becasue of boredom, throwing up because you're sick.
- When people say they DONT do certain things. It's not that you DONT, it's that you havent, or dont like to, or do often. ( Ex; "I DONT kill people". It's not that you dont, its that you havent and never plan on killing people. Ex 2:"I dont drink". You dont like to/ never have/ dont plan on ever drinking.) Haha, I'm ridiculous.
-People taking everything too seriously. (I honestly dont think I take anything seriously at all, it's kind of a bad thing.)
-When people compare Prince to Micheal Jackson.
-When people cant see both sides of an issue.
-When people dont wash their hands the correct way, or at ALL after using the bathroom, or preparing food.
- Being too shy with the person you dont wanna be shy with.
-Dull tweezers.
- Cheese that is not real. (The kind that tastes like plastic, and I HATTTE Velveta and Kraft shit.)
-Procrastinating.
- Misuse of their, they're, and there and your and you're.
- Making lists like this.

More will come. GG is almost on, I have to prepare.